Hard to believe summer is over and September has arrived! Children are back in school, Pumpkin Spice Lattes abound and gorgeous chrysanthemums are making their annual appearance. It’s still plenty hot here in Atlanta but the leaves are beginning to fall in spite of what the thermometer says.
If you’ve read my blog for awhile, you’re aware I’m the mom of an only child who wanted a houseful! God saw fit to give us one daughter and I struggled with accepting His will for a long time. I was mad at God but in the midst of my sorrow, He taught me some important, life-changing lessons I’d love to share with you.
I’m telling my story over at MothersofDaughters.com today and I hope you’l join me over there, especially if you’re struggling with infertility or just plain angry at God for not allowing circumstances to turn out the way you wanted them too. Here’s a snippet of the post I’m sharing there today:
He slapped the x-rays onto the harshly lit wall, black and white details of my most inner and intimate parts. In a perfect world the dye would shoot out the fallopian tubes in a shape like the open fingers of a hand.
Not mine. My remaining tube was clenched, holding every last bit of dye, and any possibility for pregnancy, in a tight fist. The doctor was clear and clinical, dismissive even, in his diagnosis. “You won’t be able to get pregnant again.” Maybe he was trying to be helpful, I don’t know but my heart was breaking in that moment and all I wanted to do was run out of there as quick as I could and collapse in tears.
My sweet husband tried to comfort me as best as he knew how. But how do you comfort someone who’s heart just broke? What do you do when your dream dies? We left the hospital dejected, undone, and not sure what our options were…..
Join me over at MothersofDaughters.com won’t you? And enjoy your September!