I woke up early today before sunrise to the noise of the mowers outside mowing away in the still dark Georgia morning. I got up to close the window, got back in bed and pulled the covers over my head to drown out the noise. I snuggled down into the warmth and slipped right into a dream.
I was with some young women my daughter’s age and we were talking and catching up. One girl was telling me about her marriage and how it was distinctly different than what the bridal magazines had led her to believe. The other was getting older and remained unmarried. She was desperate for a husband and children. As we talked I knew I wanted to pray for them and share my heart and the perspective that comes with age.
I was praying for the girl who wanted marriage and kids and I felt God say to me,
“She wants a husband and sons but what she doesn’t know is, I want to give her a nation.”
I was stunned, absolutely stunned by His remark. Then I woke up. Realization hit me like a ton of bricks that He wants so much more for us than we can ever begin to dream up. We think we know what we want, it’s what we’re supposed to want, right? Isn’t marriage and motherhood our highest goal? It’s a worthy goal but is it for every one of us?
Hmmm. Maybe we set our sights too low. Do we want what the world romanticizes because we don’t set our sights on Him? Because we don’t want Him enough? Don’t we know the only thing in this world ever able to truly satisfy us is Him?
We prove we don’t know by whining, complaining, regretting, seeking everything to satisfy but Him. I wanted so badly to ask her in my dream, what if God asked you to lay down your desires and risk everything on Him? Would you trust Him enough? What if He didn’t have a husband and family for you but instead something entirely different yet completely wonderful that you didn’t plan on? Would you believe Him enough? What if the path He has is a narrow one, one that flies in the face of everything our culture says you should want, do you love Him enough to walk it?
He asks a simple question, the same one He asks me:
Am I enough?
He has an answer for that. The exact same answer He gave Moses centuries before in a barren desert by a burning bush.
His ways are not my ways. The older I get the more I know it’s true. He pries open the box I’ve carefully constructed for Him and slips right out, uncontainable, unboxable. He floods my soul with His truth and His bigness and the revelation He knows exactly what I need.
The only way I can save my future is to lose it in Him. I only know one way to do that. Spend time in His presence. Spend time in worship and the Word. There’s no other way and I find the more I do it, the more ‘enough’ He becomes.
Look at your dreams. They are good and righteous I’m sure. But maybe, just maybe, He has a different path in mind for you precious one. Don’t forget, He created you before the foundation of the world and He knows exactly where He wants to take you. It might look different than you think. In fact, He might want to give you a nation.
He’s asking you today the same question He asks me.
“Am I enough?”
Please share your thoughts. Your comments are always such an amazing blessing to me. And, as always, I would be honored to pray for you in whatever area you’re needing Him to be enough.