I tend to be a worrier and as a result, I’m a planner because I want to control the outcome. If truth be known, I want to control the future, to know what’s coming and to plan for it. To be ready. Prepared. Not caught unawares. There’s no big sin in it save this: Sometimes it’s easier to trust in myself than God.
That’s the ugly truth and it’s embarrassing to admit I struggle with it, but there you go. My future seems so real and often I feel as if I Know Best which just proves one thing: I don’t.
raising an only child
Answered Prayer but not the Way I Thought
Edward Albee, the playwright, said something years ago that’s always stuck in my head. “Sometimes it’s necessary to go a long distance out of the way in order to come back a short distance correctly.“ I could never understand it because I heard it before I’d lived it. Now? I understand perfectly. I learned the hard way that …
When God Allows What He Could Prevent
Last Saturday, Mike and I were driving home from Atlanta and as I read the first sentence of an email, I inhaled so sharply at the shocking words I scared my poor husband to death! It was completely involuntary because the news was that difficult. I sat there stunned and heartbroken at the words not even knowing how to respond. I have no touchstone for this. I thought I knew God’s ways but I don’t understand how this happened. There was so much prayer and faith, and belief.